"there's always gonna be another mountain. i'm always gonna wanna make it move. always gonna be an uphill battle. sometimes i'm gonna have to lose"

The sun blinded my eyes

The wind slapped by face

The rain soaked my hair

Yet I climbed.

My father’s yells thundered my ears

My mother’s tears flooded my mind

Yet I climbed.

His words broke my heart

Her actions lost my trust

Their lies were bullets to my heart

I needed to escape; I needed to climb.

My past is an incessant nightmare

My future a wounded trail;

With nothing to lose

Nothing to gain,

I hitch my bag

Tie my shoes

And I climb.

Just me by myself

I climb.

-AA

So...

I just did the laundry, vacuumed the house - twice, watched Taylor Swift's "Mine" video, wrote on my friends' walls on facebook, read other people's blogs, virtually "recycled" all my old documents, washed the dishes, created new folders to prepare for the next year, drank some juice, carried my books to the basement... just to waste approximately 4 hours, so I didn't have to start my AP Lang & Comp summer assignment.
Oh boy.
Well, the good I got out of that is
1) hey, at least I finished the book. (which was very good)
2) I found a poem I wrote last year. (it'll be the next post)
3) my mom's proud of me & my chores

-AA

every good thing comes with a downfall

summer 2010 has been great amazing & super relaxing & way more than i could ask for. and that sucks.
now school's starting in less then a week and i'm not ready. i'm not ready for the arduous & giant work load i'll have to put up with for junior year: APs, SAT, volunteer hours, extracurriculars, etc.
so this year is my year to make it or break it.
i got one chance.
oh God, please help me survive it.
so,
note to self:
suck it up & let's do this.

-AA

5 Things I Can't Live Without...

These were hard coming up with. I thought pensively and came up with things I would need if I was stranded on an island:


1) God
2) my family
3) chicken (practically, the only thing I eat)
4) shoes
5) a large, comfortable, warm coat (I'm usually always cold)


-AA

6 Songs I'm Addicted To...

TOP PLAYED (according to my iPod :)

1) "Teenage Dream" - Katy Perry


2) "Perfect Two" - Auburn


3) "Into Your Arms" - The Maine


4) "Me, Myself, & Time" - Demi Lovato


5) "Banana Pancakes" - Jack Johnson


6) "Something 'Bout Love" - David Archuleta


-AA

"i got my toes in the water"

Toes. Small. Big. Red, green, blue. French. Clear. Evenly trimmed. Not so evenly trimmed. Hairy. Waxed. Large separation. Close together. White lines. Black spots. Dark cuticles. Pedicured. Long second toe. Short third toe. Large big toe. All equal sizes. Bump on toe. Long nails. Short. 

I know it may be ludicrous, but I guess I have a tendency to stare at people's toes. They can tell so much about the person. Are they well groomed? Do they work a lot? Do they have free time? Do they have kids? And the list can perpetuate for miles.

And the bigger thing is is that no one person's toes are homogeneous to another's. They [the toes] vary from person to person, from time to time. Police officers and detectives use fingerprints to find the culprit since everyone has a unique imprint. I say, toes could work as well. 

-AA

7 Things To Win My Heart...

He should...


1) have a good sense of humor
2) know random, eccentric, fun facts
3) comfort/reassure me
4) be motivated
5) be a "family" person 
6) must watch football (so we can have incessant "my team is better than yours" battles :)
7)  be able to talk to me forever

-AA

8 Friends Who've Made A Difference On Me...

(In no specific order), these are my friends that have made an impact on me. There are so many, so it was hard to choose just 8. But it was random. So, here it goes...

1) Betsy

2) Anam

3) Megan & Kelly (just had to put the twins together :)

4) Maleeha

5) Swathi

6) Joy

7) Alexa

8) Rmaah

-AA

9 Things I Wish For Every Day...

1) I wish my grandparents were still alive.
2) I wish for my family to stay happy forever.
3) I wish to go to college (and a good one). I want to get over this whole high school life. It's tense.
4) I wish that everyday was longer. There's so much to do, but so little time.
5) I wish for my grandma to recover from Alzheimer's. 
6) I wish that life became simple and easy.
7) I wish I could make a difference. Maybe start a charity? Hopefully.
8) I wish that my hair grows longer & fast. (it takes a long time to grow)
9) I wish my family & I & quite frankly, all the good people in the world go to heaven.

-AA

Day 1: 10 Things About Me...

1) As you can probably tell from my previous posts, I don't like driving. I'm actually fine sitting in the back seat, letting the person in front take me where ever he (or she) wants  to. I suck at directions...and the thing is that I don't care. Maybe it's because I'm a natural born follower? But I think it's because I like the feeling of not having too much pressure on my shoulders. I can just sit back & relax for once.

2) I'm not really a people person. I can't makeup something clever to say right on spot. I'm awkward like that. Everything just sounds a whole lot better in my head...and in writing. I love my friends to death for putting up with me and understanding that.

3) I like it when people compliment me. I like it when people call me smart. It makes me feel like I'm someone who they look up to, someone they envy. I know it sounds selfish, but I can't help myself. I hate it when people ignore me.

4) I like silence. Sometimes I prefer just watching tv in my room or reading on Friday nights.

5) I'm a fastidious eater, but I love food. Alot.

6) Well, going with question 5 (kinda), I'm super self-conscientious. I know I'm not fat, but I always worry about that when I wear jeans, which is all the time. I look at the mirror for a good 10 minutes to see what angles make me look skinny.It's really pathetic.

7) I love skinny jeans. Best fashion trend EVERRRR!

8) I'm not big into talking on the phone. I think it's kinda awkward just hearing the voice. I prefer a face to face conversation.

9) I put too much pressure on myself. I want to be good at everything. I want to go to an Ivy league school. I want to be "cool". I want people to like me. I want to look pretty and sophisticated and good all the time. And most importantly, the number one goal in my life is that I want to make my parents proud.

10) I love rollercoasters.

-AA